Super Chunk

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October 15th, 2007 · No Comments

I’ve lost my ability to have opinions in public. I don’t do anything controversial or all that interesting these days (I’m too busy), and I don’t even get that much opportunity to read interesting things because I’m not online all day like some people (hi, sweetie! I totally don’t hold it against you!), and when an idea does struggle its way to the top level of my brain, my personal internet filter kicks in and says “someone is going to read that, and it is going to come back and bite you in the ass.” All this harmlessness is making me bland, and I don’t much like it. I’m actually PRACTICING being BLAND. Yuck.

The other piece is that I’m continually preoccupied with what I’m doing/not doing with my kids or for school or in my house. It doesn’t leave a lot of room for actual thought, and I don’t know quite how to get out of that mode. Not so good. I am a smart person, and I don’t think that is the first thing that comes forth in my personality. I think I tend to come across as a yammerer.

(The flip side of all this is that I don’t waste a lot of energy being outraged about things that are not worth my time. Preschool mom with high-octane ideas about the Halloween party? Nope. Someone needs to be that person, and I’m just as happy that it isn’t me this time around. Even if I think she’s overdoing, that’s not my problem, and for her it probably isn’t a problem at all. A year ago I would have been completely hacked off. Now I’m a touch intimidated, but not spending my time being aggravated. And it IS going to be a fun party. :) )

Right this minute I have somewhere else to be. So I’m gonna go take care of that — I have a rather detailed schedule for this afternoon — and maybe I’ll think of something while I’m away. Hugs to you.

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